Black Moon Lilith: 2

black leaf ellipses

revolves around invisible mass


in amber water

rotting core,


this is bullshit 5 dollar tea

everyone with a cup in their hand is white


I am more fire than air tonight

a preapocalyptic November gas


does not soothe me though I like the heat

vibrations vibrations vibrations


in my heart, in my voice

in a silence in the space between


two bodies that don’t know how to talk about it

I rip you from the flesh of my memory


a razor blade to a mole

I do not remember you


but I see you

seeing seeing seeing


my mother paints in the notebook I bound for her

brown paper bags, newsprint, green lacerations


turning pages like pulling peeling back layers

“are you awake now?”