Black Moon Lilith: 2

black leaf ellipses

revolves around invisible mass

 

in amber water

rotting core,

 

this is bullshit 5 dollar tea

everyone with a cup in their hand is white

 

I am more fire than air tonight

a preapocalyptic November gas

 

does not soothe me though I like the heat

vibrations vibrations vibrations

 

in my heart, in my voice

in a silence in the space between

 

two bodies that don’t know how to talk about it

I rip you from the flesh of my memory

 

a razor blade to a mole

I do not remember you

 

but I see you

seeing seeing seeing

 

my mother paints in the notebook I bound for her

brown paper bags, newsprint, green lacerations

 

turning pages like pulling peeling back layers

“are you awake now?”